I started first year at Charis Bible College. I’m quite surprised; I was a little skeptical if I would truly connect to God this way. Luckily, I was proven wrong. It’s the second week in and it’s already changed my life. I have noticed that I genuinely feel so much happier. Not only that, but my relationship with God has completely flipped. All I knew before is that I loved God and God loved me, that’s it. Today in class, Carrie and Mike Pickett were speaking on Life Foundations. I couldn’t think about a better title for their class. They truly speak about the foundation that you need in life, especially with God.
I wish I knew back then how much God loved me. It would’ve changed my life 9 months ago, before the depression and the over thinking about everything. The thing is, God loves you so much, that you don’t have to prove your love to him. He gave his only son, the only one he’s ever purely created, and he gave him to us as a gift of how much he loves us. Jesus died on the cross to save us from our sins as a reflection of how much God adores our lives. Imagine giving your only son, who is so pure and perfect, to your creation to save everyone. Not just the people who believe in God, but to everyone. You don’t have to prove your love for him because he doesn’t need that. All he wants is for us to know how much he truly loves us.
I’m going to admit that I am skeptical about praying in tongues. I am not comfortable with it, personally. What I didn’t know is that my spirit has done it already. Christ lives in us, our spirits, and Christ has done everything. He’s healed people and raised people from the dead, he also has spoken in tongues. Instead of your soul and your mind on what people think around you and how you sound, focus on your spirit praying to God. Praying in English is your soul praying but praying in Tongues is your Spirit’s language. I truly didn’t understand this till today.
Since we don’t have to prove ourselves to get God’s love, what do we do to show him our love? That’s why we worship to his songs. When we worship, we are singing “God, thank you for loving me, this is how much I love you and more.” When we raise our hands, it isn’t because we want to show others how much we love God, it’s to push our love towards him. “Here God, here is my love for you. I will sing your song and I will shout your name because I love you that much.”
Carrie Pickett was talking about a prayer she prays everyday. “Lord, show me how much you love me today.” It’s not selfish or rude by asking that of him because he will gladly show you. He wants you to know how much love he has for you. It’s nothing to be ashamed about and hide because it’s amazing. God is Love. You don’t have to buy his love and you don’t have to prove your place in his heart by volunteering at your church or giving everything you have, it should just be something you do because you love him that much. Walk by Faith, and not by Sight; Know that he loves you so much, that you don’t have to worry about finances or relationship issues because He will take care of it for you. Don’t go up to people begging for money, have faith that God will provide for you.